Today was my 2nd lesson and learned 2 new kata. I realised the importance of keeping my composure even when my hands were sweating buckets and it was terribly tricky when you practice with a semi-sharp blade! Ive really bad sweaty palms situation since like forever. But I didnt cut myself today, super happy about that. But towards the end of my lesson I tried to regain my composure, took deep breaths, thought of something freezing cold and my palms were sweaty no more! Temporary miracle?? I dont think so. Now I need to practice getting into that zone again so that I can keep the blade smoothly the next time. Learned how to oil the blade.
I’m starting to like my training sword more eventhough its super heavy and the tsuba gave me bruises! FYI it tasted my blood during my first lesson. (Resisting the urge to insert a tacky song lyric)
The first day of training at my new dojo has been very enlightening and rather refreshing. For the first time there is no need for me to have a training partner. A senior ever so patiently and carefully, instructed me on the lesson of the day and I am left to try it out on my own. There were plenty of other students in the dojo but I was amazed at how I was able to concentrate and stay focused on what I was supposed to do. And before I knew it, 2 hours went passed just like that. I felt as though amidst the fluttering of activities around me, I wasn’t distracted at all. This, if you must know, is very new to me. I truly believe that anything is possible, even when I almost lost hope in myself to ever absorb anything new. Anything is possible. Believe in yourself even when you don’t. Look forward but never wait. Everything happens in its own time.
I told myself this at the start of the year that no matter which art I am learning, I will always be an Aikidoka at heart. It will never leave me. But I needed to experience other things for myself, to see, hear and learn from other’s perspective. I want to draw my own conclusions based on what I’ve experienced and not someone else’s. My martial arts journey has never been a smooth one but I think that’s ok. Perhaps at this point, I’ve made peace with my own expectations of what I would like to achieve at a certain stage of my martial arts training. Yes, I stopped short of going for my black belt in Aikido when I decided to leave my former dojo. It was a painful decision and I didn’t regret it. I felt so stagnant and I realised that the only thing that’s stopping me was myself. A fresh start and some re-evaluation of personal goals was sorely needed. I’m taking my time to learn and grow and I don’t care how embarrassing the small steps I have to take as long as I move forward. I hope to share in due time what I am currently learning but rest assure that I am still going for training.